On July of 2019, I went to a missionary trip in Croatia to volunteer as a camp counselor.
The camp is orchestrated for the children of the Roma population every year. On the second night of camp, I was having a really hard time adjusting to everything, because I felt like I had no talents to offer to the children; therefore that translated to me letting everyone down in my head. I also felt like I was feeling all kinds of emotions about being a different place, and wanting to gain people’s approval there.
When the director of the camp, who is a woman named Janet Tuškan realized that I was not okay, she told me to go inside and wait for everything to settle in to talk to me, but my anxiety did not allow me to wait, so I had a panic attack. When word got around, Janet came rushing, and hugged me, then took me in her care, and she heard all of what I had to say. After she heard all of my thoughts aloud, Janet said these words of wisdom that i will never forget: “ Liz did you know that if you sat in front of a TV eating chocolate for the rest of your life, God wouldn’t love you any less.”
In that very moment was the first time I was able to breathe in and feel all the pressure come off my shoulders. My lovely ladies, I’m here to tell you this testimony so that I can remind you that in this quarantine, if you just want to do new things, and you’re all caught up and worried about what you’re not getting done, you’re wasting more time than you would by just being.
You don’t have to do anything to make God love you any less or any more, you don’t have to do anything to gain value. You are already valuable, simply because you exist, simply because you were created by a father who loves you for who you are. Just be in the midst of crisis, in the midst of serving, In the midst of worshiping, in the midst of hanging out with friends, in the midst of strangers, and you get the point… JUST BE, because existing is more than enough.
Later on at camp, I realized that my presence was enough to comfort the girls at camp, and that just by me being there all the way from America to show them all the love and support was more than enough. Therefore daughter, the pressure is off. I’ve discovered the key to being a good writer, mother now, or in the future, co worker, worship leader, server, daughter, sister and friend, wife, etc… is just by accepting that WE ARE daughters of a father who’s love isn’t dependent on what we do, or the tittles we have, but who loves us simple because of who we are. That love will overflow out of you with the different gifts God has given you, when you accept who you are is worth far more than anything you could ever do in or accomplish in this world.
Psalm 46:10: “ Be still and know that I am God.”
– Liz Herrera