‘I love you, Lord ; you are my strength. The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my savior; my God is my rock, in whom I find protection. He is my shield, the power that saves me, and my place of safety. I called on the Lord , who is worthy of praise, and he saved me from my enemies.’
Psalms 18: 1-3
But the Lord is my fortress; my God is the mighty rock where I hide.’
‘And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.’
Hola mi amor!
How have you been?
I know, the last few weeks have probably been some of the times where we have found ourselves the weakest, right? I mean for many of us, our world flipped right upside down. Some of us are struggling financially, are finding ourselves worrying more than usual, or are feeling disoriented and having a hard time adjusting. Whatever it is girl, I’m with you, and I’ve been struggling too.
Today, I wanted to share with you about my short journey of getting back to spending time with God and learning again that that is where my strength comes from.
Can I be honest?
Yesterday made two weeks since I packed my bags to head back to the United States, and it has been harder to adjust to life than I thought.
I think I denied it, how hard of a time I was actually having. I thought that I was fine. I thought that I was doing well and adjusted easily… until I felt like my thoughts were uncontrollable; Until I began to push away from the people that I love; Until I began to cry out to God for help in secret. What was going on with me? I thought. The longer that I was in that state, I wondered when God was going to pull through.
But one night, in the midst of feeling disoriented and like my thoughts were out of control, I walked up the steps of my father’s house here in Florida and looked at the light brown carpet steps. As soon as I did, I remembered that the steps at my father’s first house were also carpet. I was taken back to the moments where I prayed and talked to God on those steps, pouring out my heart to Him, laughing with Him, and reading His Word. I remembered how happy I was then, how at peace I was then, how strong in Him that I was then. After being reminded of those memories, God reminded me of an instagram post that stuck out to me a few weeks ago, one that God had been previously bringing to mind. The post simply said “you will be happier than you’ve ever been before.”
A part of me was skeptical and wondered how that promise can be true when I felt so down, but God was teaching me something. God was teaching me that it will be when I spend more time with Him that that promise will come to pass. Being reminded of those memories, I recalled that God really is the only place where I can find true strength. He is where my joy comes from, and hope ignited in me that believed that the more that I show up for God and ean on Him and His Word for strength, He will be sure to show up for me with the strength that I need.
Over the last few days, I have been a lot better at spending regular time with God. Really, I can’t deny that I feel more at peace and stronger than I have the last few days. I can’t deny that I have been happier, less anxious, and more present in the moment. Where I felt that things were cloudy before, more knowledge of God through His word brought clarity. Where I felt anxious, God’s word exposed the lies that I have been telling myself.
Practically speaking, my quiet time has looked a lot differently lately because I just really needed God to meet my needs. I’d usually love to pick a book, read, adn study it, but lately, I’ve been putting a lot more time into actually meditating on God’s Word in the morning and using them to pray over my life. It’s been like water to my soul, and I’m trusting that God through time spent with Him and in His Word will continue to meet my needs and calm my heart.
So daughter (or son), I write this to encourage you to continue to seek God with me for strength, and to use this time that we now have to spend more time with Him. Take your time with God, allowing the Holy Spirit to help His Word to get deep in you. Where I felt weak this week, He has really made me feel strong, and I believe that He can really do the same for you amor.
P.S. For you who maybe are doubting that He can actually be strong enough to take you out of where you are, believe me, it’s worth it to step out in even a mustard seed of faith that He will give you the strength you need to pull through. I testify that He has full power to meet you right where you are.